A New Phase

Ok, so I know I haven't posted pictures from my family's New Years visit yet (which I will do soon), but I feel like I needed to write about this first. Over the past few months Cooper has started a new phase. Cooper has always been a daddy's boy ever since he was born. He and his dad have this wonderful relationship that I can't even begin to relate to. It's all about being BOYS! Which is great for them. The problem is, I seem to have a love hate relationship with this new phase. I love the way Paul relates to Cooper but I hate the fact that Cooper wants Paul all of the time. What about me, the mommy? Paul is the fun one, the energetic one, the one who will walk Cooper around the house or up and down the stairs for hours at a time. I'm really glad that Cooper has such a wonderful dad, but as the mommy, I feel like I'm not needed or wanted as much and it BREAKS MY HEART! This past weekend was particularly difficulty for me. Cooper wanted to be held a lot. There isn't anything wrong with that, except Cooper would only let Paul hold him. Every time I held Cooper he would reach for Paul or squirm and wiggle his way to the ground and then walk over to Paul wanting to be held. This just broke my heart! I kept thinking what did I do or not do? Don't get me wrong, I don't have a problem with Cooper wanting to be around his dad, it's just that, when it happens ALL the time I feel rejected. I'm really glad that Cooper loves his dad so much and shows interest in him but I wish he would show interest in his mom sometimes. I will never have that same relationship as Cooper does with Paul, nor do I want it. I wouldn't mind hearing him say mom once in awhile rather than dad all the time. Maybe I'm over reacting a little. But I want to feel loved and needed and I'm not feeling that right now. I'm hoping this is just a phase and that he will want to spend some time with me someday soon. I'm really looking forward to having my summer vacation to spend everyday home with Cooper! Summer can't come fast enough!